Family of Blue
The Weight of the Badge
By Kaylee Rose
Family of Blue
The Weight of the Badge
By Kaylee Rose
For the Love of Us:
Fighting to Keep Our Love Alive
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What happens when the kids leave for college and you remember you’re not just mom, but a woman too?
Simply going through the motions on autopilot day after day, weighed heavily on me.
The one thing which bonded my husband and I, before the kids came along, was slowly cast aside as their needs grew more demanding.
Intimacy became an act; a performance, without the desire, passion and lust we once had.
My need to feel desired and wanted by my husband ate at me and I was determined to make him see the woman he married twenty-two years ago.
I wasn’t going to give up and hatched a plan, one which would hopefully forge a new beginning for us.
Fighting to keep our love alive was a risk, but, for us, I was prepared to do anything.
It’s September 9, 2019 and my book, For the Love of Us, is out there for anybody to read, judge and review. Oh no, the reviews.
Actually the reviews weren’t something I focused on beyond using the details, positive and negative to get better.
Relatable was the common theme amongst the reviews and messages I’ve received. They could see their own relationship and struggles in Callie’s story. An empty nester wanting to be desired by her husband again. That right there gave me a sense of satisfaction I never felt before. I hoped readers would be able to connect with my characters and story, but you never know until you put it out for the world to see. I’ve done just that, and it feels great.
The rush of release week passed and now promoting and sharing my book is moving along. What’s next? Write another book of course. Sounds easy, but writing is anything but easy.
Whereas Callie and Brad had a piece of my life floating within the pages, my new story is 100% fiction. This means creating characters from scratch and many new techniques to learn before this book can get off the ground.
Unfortunately, the impatient person that I am thought this would be a breeze and I got way ahead of myself. I dove in and sent 2 chapters to my editor without having any real structure or plan. Silly newbie author move. Thankfully my editor has the patience I’ll never have and told me to slow down. Slow way down and get it right. That’s exactly what I’ve done.
Moving through the final days of 2019 weren’t anything special on the book front. I wrote, rewrote and started again. I will concede to many mistakes during my indie publishing process. However, each mistake is a learning experience which I will use to get better with each chapter of my life.
I’m only in the prologue of my writing adventure. I have a long way to go before I must type The End. I plan to enjoy the journey for a long long time.
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‘𝘍𝘰𝘳 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘓𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘜𝘴:
𝘍𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘒𝘦𝘦𝘱 𝘖𝘶𝘳 𝘓𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘈𝘭𝘪𝘷𝘦’
𝑾𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒆𝒏𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒌𝒊𝒅𝒔 𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒄𝒐𝒍𝒍𝒆𝒈𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒓𝒆𝒎𝒆𝒎𝒃𝒆𝒓 𝒚𝒐𝒖’𝒓𝒆 𝒏𝒐𝒕 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒎𝒐𝒎, 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒂 𝒘𝒐𝒎𝒂𝒏 𝒕𝒐𝒐?
𝑺𝒊𝒎𝒑𝒍𝒚 𝒈𝒐𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒉𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒎𝒐𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔, 𝒐𝒏 𝒂𝒖𝒕𝒐𝒑𝒊𝒍𝒐𝒕 𝒅𝒂𝒚 𝒂𝒇𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝒅𝒂𝒚, 𝒘𝒆𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒆𝒅 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒗𝒊𝒍𝒚 𝒐𝒏 𝒎𝒆.𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒘𝒉𝒊𝒄𝒉 𝒃𝒐𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒅 𝒎𝒚 𝒉𝒖𝒔𝒃𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒎𝒆, 𝒃𝒆𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒌𝒊𝒅𝒔 𝒄𝒂𝒎𝒆 𝒂𝒍𝒐𝒏𝒈, 𝒘𝒂𝒔 𝒔𝒍𝒐𝒘𝒍𝒚 𝒄𝒂𝒔𝒕 𝒂𝒔𝒊𝒅𝒆 𝒂𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅𝒔 𝒈𝒓𝒆𝒘 𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒆 𝒅𝒆𝒎𝒂𝒏𝒅𝒊𝒏𝒈.
𝑰𝒏𝒕𝒊𝒎𝒂𝒄𝒚 𝒃𝒆𝒄𝒂𝒎𝒆 𝒂𝒏 𝒂𝒄𝒕; 𝒂 𝒑𝒆𝒓𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒎𝒂𝒏𝒄𝒆, 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒅𝒆𝒔𝒊𝒓𝒆, 𝒑𝒂𝒔𝒔𝒊𝒐𝒏, 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒍𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒘𝒆 𝒐𝒏𝒄𝒆 𝒔𝒉𝒂𝒓𝒆𝒅. 𝑴𝒚 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒇𝒆𝒆𝒍 𝒅𝒆𝒔𝒊𝒓𝒆𝒅 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕𝒆𝒅 𝒃𝒚 𝒎𝒚 𝒉𝒖𝒔𝒃𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒂𝒕𝒆 𝒂𝒕 𝒎𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑰 𝒘𝒂𝒔 𝒅𝒆𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒎𝒂𝒌𝒆 𝒉𝒊𝒎 𝒔𝒆𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒘𝒐𝒎𝒂𝒏 𝒉𝒆 𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒅.
𝑰 𝒘𝒂𝒔𝒏’𝒕 𝒈𝒐𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒐 𝒈𝒊𝒗𝒆 𝒖𝒑 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒉𝒂𝒕𝒄𝒉𝒆𝒅 𝒂 𝒑𝒍𝒂𝒏, 𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒘𝒉𝒊𝒄𝒉 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒉𝒐𝒑𝒆𝒇𝒖𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒈𝒆 𝒂 𝒏𝒆𝒘 𝒃𝒆𝒈𝒊𝒏𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒖𝒔.
“I laughed and i cried. This book hits so close to home!”
“This story is very relatable and gave me all the feels.”
“I loved this story, it had me reading with a smile. The author grabs your attention throughout, you can’t help but sympathizing for the characters. The story flows beautifully, it’s a strong debut novel, original in the sense that the themes addressed are new to me and realistic. Well done, Rose. Five encouraging stars. Looking forward to more.”
Thinking back on 2019 and all the emotional ups and downs has me analyzing the details, searching for pieces I can use to make myself better in all parts of my life.
January- My personal life was normal and moving forward as expected with 28 years of marriage under my belt, 3 adult sons and a pre-teen son all growing and learning how to navigate the world. This was a great way to begin the year. Next step was to dive into my goal for the new year, write the story that’s been inside my head and share it with the world.
I was two months deep into writing my first book, had just received my first critique and realized I had a lot to learn before I would even come close to publishing my book. This is where my new personal tagline came from.
I believe in my story, but writing it is hard.
February, March, April and May- While continuing to plug away on the keyboard, I did a pretty good job of balancing the other parts of the book world I love. My blog was a priority and took a lot of my time but didn’t interfere too much with the new author hat I donned proudly. It was still a secret to most everyone that I was adding the title to my name. Those who knew supported and guided me with a firm and loving hand. I needed both.
Speaking of names, I decided a pen name was needed to give my husband and sons some anonymity. With my genre of choice, romance, I didn’t think my sons would be thrilled about my career choice. I was wrong. They are my biggest cheerleaders, telling me how proud they are of me. I think watching me struggle, cry, learn, fail, and succeed at something I believed I would never be able to do was a great example of how to reach a goal through hard work and determination.
June- Everything appeared normal. I was moving forward with writing, blogging and regular life at what I thought was a great pace. I still had a lot to do, but I was set on cruise control, not in any hurry to reach the finish line. That’s when I got the biggest shove of a lifetime, forcing me to make some hard decisions. A message came asking me what I was waiting for. Are you going to finish this book and publish it or what? The question hung in the air for about two seconds.
That’s the moment it became real. Suddenly I had a beautiful cover, a solid pen name, and an editor. To say it was a whirlwind doesn’t do it justice. Especially when I was planning to leave on a long road trip in 30 days.
July- I spent time on my vacation relaxing and writing. The calm of waking early, walking to grab my coffee and sitting down to the view of the Grand Canyon fueled my brain with clean air, filtering the doubt from my mind. I wrote and wrote, letting the creativity fly.
August- Although I would have loved to extend my time away, life called, and I returned home and picked up where I left off. My regular coffee shop was my favorite place to write. Sunday mornings gave me my biggest word count. On one memorable Sunday, I wrote a few words at the bottom of the page and froze. With super quick fingers I messaged a friend and said, “I think I just wrote the last line of my book. It’s done.” I was stunned.
You can read more about my editing process in earlier posts. It wasn’t a pretty experience but one of the biggest moments in my life. I grew as a person and found parts of who I truly am, which have been buried within my soul for as long as I can remember.
September- My first book released. I was scared, elated, dumbfounded and humbled.
TO BE CONTINUED…
Hello and welcome to my blog, Author Interviews. My name is Fiona Mcvie.
Let’s get you introduced to everyone, shall we? Tell us your name. What is your age?
Kaylee Rose 49
Fiona: Where are you from?
I have lived in the same small beach town in Northern California my whole life
Fiona: A little about yourself (ie, your education, family life, etc.).
Sports have always been a huge part of my life. Playing, coaching or simple watching. I decided to step away from coaching about 6 years ago and it changed my life drastically. My husband recognised the change in my mood and sadness I had from losing something I was fully immersed in for most of my life. He took me on a three week long road trip, starting in Disneyland, up to Yellowstone Park in Wyoming and back home. That trip brought me back to me…
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Family of Blue
The Weight of the Badge
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Life changes in a matter of seconds. For Kellie Bryant it came in the form of her niece Rory. Kellie knew raising a three-year-old came with big responsibilities, but she never thought she’d lose herself in parenthood. The only fairy tales she sees in her future now lie between the pages of the picture books she reads to Rory at night.
However, Deputy Lance Malloy, the officer who helped in the change of guardianship with Rory made mental notes that fateful day. His ex-girlfriend couldn’t handle life with an officer, but something about Kellie made an impression that officer Malloy can’t shake. Could Kellie be the answer to his dream—a partner who understands the weight of the badge?
If you’ve been following my journey, you know writing my first book wasn’t an easy process.
I still have a lot to learn. Ugh, forty-nine years old and I feel like I’m back in school. The place I hated the most while growing up and did everything I could to avoid.
Let me backup a bit. Growing up a multi-sport athlete, I was more concerned with playing a game than was with my schoolwork. I’m positive I was capable of being an ‘A’ student, but never put forth the effort necessary to be successful in the classroom. My claim to fame was being the top athlete in my school.Read more
Simple answer for me. I start writing the next story that’s been floating around and talking to me for the last year.
But just writing is only part of the answer as I learned while writing, For the Love of Us.
My check list for book 2
1) Have an idea. Ok, I have that one covered and I hope it’s a story you’ll enjoy.
2) Write it, Ok, I’m doing that too.
3) Don’t forget I need an editor. Better get on that now since her schedule will fill up quickly and I don’t want just any editor. I want my editor.
4) Figure out how to pay for the publishing expenses again because earning royalties from that first book is not easy and may never bring me into an actual profit. This is where the love of what I doing comes in.